Conclusions


I have come to many conclusions the past few weeks. Here they are, take them for what they are worth.


I would do anything for a gym in this little one horse town. What I would give to be able to go and put my head phones in for an hour and just work out. It's such a stress relief. I have ordered two boot camp DVD's and I can't do them for five straight minutes without one of the boys needing something. The point is to keep your heart rate UP not up and down, up and down. I heart Golds Gym and their Kids Club. Only if it were closer!!

Jake still has sweetness in him. Even though he has been consuming my attention 24 hours a day and all 7 days of every week he is still so sweet. He told me this morning I was prettier in my wedding dress than Kate at her "Royal Wedding." Bless his heart!!! I only wish.

Luke is starting to fight his sleep. Every time I am rocking him and he gets even the least bit comfy and starts to doze he will wake himself up. We start over. The good thing is I could hold him all day long. He is sleeping 6-8 hours at night. Cody and I are both sleepers so this is HUGE to us!

I work harder at home then I do when I am at work. It is non stop all day long. GEEZ!! I have such a better respect for stay at home moms. I still have this dream that for one day my house will stay spotless! I am losing so many hours washing dishes that I can never get back. I need a dishwasher in the worst way!

I have the best step mother on this earth. She came to watch Luke while I went to school and administered TAKS test Tuesday and Wednesday. She did laundry and cooked the whole time she was here. We love her so much and enjoy her company more than anything!

We are officially out of room in this house. I can't fit another thing in one more closet or cabinet. I am so ready to build our house. The boys need a big yard to play and I need to be out of this neighborhood so I can lock them outside for an hour so I can get quiet time! Don't judge!

Cody and I originally thought we would wait until Luke was 3 before we started to try and have another one. I think its going to be much sooner. Why not be done with it sooner than later?

Easter was at moms this year and my brother and his family came down! It's always such a good time when they are here!

                                                                    Luke before church

                                                            
                                                         Jake found the "golden" egg

This was Jake's first Easter at 3 months old!

Luke's first Easter at 1 month old!

    

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Family Time T-Ball

We have been making it a point to get Jake outside every evening and playing with just HIM. The t-ball league here has always let the boys play at age 4. So, after telling Jake for the past year that he can play when he's 4 they go and change the age on us. This has been a sore subject around this house because being from a small town I expected Cody just to be able to go up there and say look I'm Cody DeSpain and my son wants to play tball and no he's not 5 but I'm Cody DeSpain. Being the baller that husband was in high school on the diamond I knew it would work. IT DIDN'T!  Jake is not playing tball and will have to wait for another year. I told Cody we are getting Jake a T and when he does get to play I want him to be THE BEST on the team so they would have wished they would have had him on the team last year!!! Cody thinks Jake is still young anyway and his attention span is still too short. Here are a few pics from family tball night!

Yep, I'm cute! WHAT??

       Told Y'all!

My favorite shirt, of course!

                                             
                                                                      
                     I would say this was maybe 10 minutes after we started! I hate when Cody is right!!!

                                                                      Our cheerleader!



Oh, My Head


I watch all of the Real Housewives but Orange County is by far my favorite. I guess because it's the original and it's been on the longest. It is hard for me to get in to shows but once I do I am crazy about them. To all of you I am sure you have realized that they are so stupid from the beginning but I am just seeing how bad this season is. Slade is such a dork, and where did Tamara find Eddie? The more I watch them the more I think they both may have like men in their former life. I am talking about these people on first name basis like I know them and they have NO clue who I am, obviously. Whatev!

Jake and I had a heart to heart this morning about numerous things and my mind is going 90 miles and hour about if I am handling everything the right way. I admit it. I have googled, called my mom, read, spanked, threatened, loved on him, bought him so much new stuff, and just about lost my mind since Luke has been born. Oh, my head. I need help. Advice. It is very apparent he is acting out to get attention and it baffles my mind. Cody and I  make it a point to spend as much one on one time with him as much as we can EVERY day.  I am certain he will be just fine and it will all take some adjusting but what will I do until that time comes??!! I tried to explain to him that Luke is his brother and it is his job to take care of him and never do anything that would hurt him. I explained that my older brother and sister took care of me and were always such good big brothers and sisters. We had the manners talk and how his friends parents will not want him to play with their kids if he doesn't have good manners. I even dropped Jesus's name and how he is always watching and he doesn't like when little boys are ugly to their mommy, daddy, and little brother. I'm torn because I know he needs so much love right now but I have to be just as consistent as I always have and make sure he listens. It's been very hard to say the least. It almost appears he's torn too. One minute he wants to hold Luke and feed him and the next he's being not so nice. Of course I blame myself for not preparing him better of what was about to happen. He has been my only baby for so long and up until 9 months ago I wasn't for sure when I was going to have another one. Not only have I babied (is that a word) his whole life but my WHOLE family has too. He was the first baby in 8 years. He has called the shots for so long. It has been so exhausting. Cody and I are both working so hard and I pray it gets easier real quick. And last but not least, why can't he hit the toilet when he pees???  Y'all pray for me and call me and tell me what to do next!! I have never been one to think I know everything. Brooke Michelle, HELP!!!

Feels so Good, Feelin' Good Again


It's Friday and one child  of mine slept all night and the tiny new child of mine slept for SIX straight hours!! He went down at 11pm and woke up at 5am. It gets better....Cody got up at 5 and fed him so I got to keep sleeping! This is the second night I have gotten to sleep for more than 3 hours at a time. Mom was here Thursday night and got up with Luke when he needed her. I feel so rejuvenated! Jake went to his dads today and will stay until Monday. I hate it and don't know if it will ever get easier when he leaves me. He looks at me with those puppy dog eyes while he's on his dad's shoulder walking to his truck and it gets me every single time. I'm sure when they round the corner he is talking his dad's ear off and is like mom who?? Cody and I are going to dinner and maybe a movie tonight and I can hardly wait. It's been way to long. His parents are going to keep Luke for the first time and I know his mom can hardly wait. Part of me wants to tell Cody lets find a bar with live music instead and eat fried bar food and drink adult beverages. Considering we will be home by 10 or so that probably won't happen. Next time! We have no plans this weekend. I would like to do something in the yard of ours. We are in the running for the yard of the month right now. It's bad y'all. There is always a shovel, gun, Gator, trucks, or something in our yard at all times. I constantly pick it up, I give up! I know our neighbors are proud we live here. I am convinced landscaping does not stay alive without a sprinkler system. Who has time to water everyday??

Hope y'all have a good weekend!!

When I Grow Up


Yesterday we took a little road trip to Huntsville. I would have never considered Huntsville a road trip until now.  What a difference it makes with a newborn. I have not mastered how to get the boys dressed and get my hair and make up done. I would have to start getting ready the night before. I had to start tanning so I don't look dead out in public.  We went to visit my Nanny, the boys great grandma. It was such a good visit and I left there feeling so guilty and ashamed I don't take them to see her more often. On the way to her house Jake started asking me questions about when he "grows up." I know when I told him that Nanny was his paw paw's mom it threw him for a loop. He told me his paw paw didn't need a mom cause he was grown up. Our conversation was all over the place. He told me he wanted a wedding ring. Maybe because he sees me wearing mine again. I told him he would have a wedding ring one day when he had a wife. He said he didn't want a wife, just his friends and he would pick them up in his truck that was going to be just like his Uncle Stephens. This is not the first time he has mentioned about when he "grows up" to me and Cody. He told us about a month ago he was going to move out of our house but he will build one right next door. I want to just hold him and squeeze him and tell him you will have the rest of your life to be grown up just stay little for your mamas sake! I got a kick out of this because it always amazes me what goes through their minds and how they perceive things.

I think Luke is starting to get his schedule right. He is staying up so much more during the day. It's a damn good thing because I was about to go insane. My poor husband has been catching the worst part. I think he is happy he gets to go to work just to get out of this house and not hear me complain how incredibly tired I am. It's been a rough three weeks but it's starting to get better. I see Luke's eyes more and more each day. He is starting to smile at us and I can't get enough of his kisses. I took him to his two week check up and he had gained a pound and grew two inches. 9.1 pounds and 22 inches long. I think Jake is the smartest child alive but I think Luke is going to give him a run for his money already. From the day he was born he has held this pacifier in his mouth when we give it to him. He LOVES it. I am not sure how I feel about this just yet. I know how hard it will be at 6 months to break him of it. At 2 am it seems like a VERY good idea right now though.

Luke and his great grandparents, Guy Guy and Pop.

Playing Catch Up

I started this post at 10 am. I am determined to get it posted TODAY!


I came in to work for the day because my sweet angel kids have been giving my sub a little hassle to say the least. I figured I would pay them a little visit to get their attention! I was so excited to see them and they were so excited to see me. I had a few not even show up today because they heard I was coming. I like this, it means I'm doing my job!

I left my sweet baby this morning for the first time. I know he is in good hands but it still tore me apart. I was getting that anxious feeling about an hour before E-Beth got there to get him. I text Cody and told him I wasn't sure if I could do this. Jake even asked me more than once this morning who was going to take care of Luke while we were at school? I did learn that it does NOT get easier after the first child.

I haven't blogged in so long because I cant imagine putting Luke down or passing up an extra 30 minutes to play with Jake. It just hasn't been high on my to do list. I am still trying to get some sort of schedule in our house but right now it's being run by this precious miracle that is only 2 weeks old. I have loved staying home more than I thought I would ever imagined. I don't ever want to go back to work full time. Like never ever. I love being able to keep a clean house, do laundry, and have a home cooked meal every night. I do wish Jake's school was a little closer so he could keep going but that just isn't feasible right now with gas prices crazy nuts.

I am trying to lose all this weight that I gained and I am half way there. Jake says I still have a big belly. Who speaks the truth more than kids? And he's right. I'm trying son!

This weekend we are going home. My parents are having their grand opening of the new building on Saturday with hundreds of pounds of craw fish. That's pretty much all they had to say to get me there. I did say HUNDREDS! I will dream about them tonight, all while I'm trying to lose that weight I just mentioned. Maybe I will start Monday! The band that played at our wedding will be playing and Jake already has all of his guitars, cords, and amps ready to load in the car.

I will try and start posting more. Each week gets a little easier and calmer around here. Pray Luke sleeps while we are out of town. Hope y'all have a wonderful weekend!