Words That Haunt Me

I feel like I shouldn't even blog until the baby gets here cause all I do is complain how miserable I am. My miserableness went from a 6 to a 10, a freakin' 10, overnight. I finally fell asleep in Jake's bed last night. After I had tried everything........but Goose's kennel! I ended up crying myself to sleep while saying the Our Father over and over again. Thank Jesus Mrs. V told me to sleep in since first period is my off period and she would take my class. That extra hour of zzzzzzz's was great! I check the pregnancy calendar each week to see how the baby is developing . The pictures always look like this:

This is not what Luke feels like in my belly. I swear he's more like this:

I am hoping he will just give one huge kick and kick right out. I am over this, for real!

We are playing cards with friends tonight and cooking fajitas at our house. Tomorrow we will be going to Willis for my last shower on Sunday. I am hoping to get a few things done before we leave. I am still avoiding the closet that HAS to be cleaned out before Luke arrives. I am giving my husband an ultimatum about the Christmas lights still on the house. Don't judge.They have to be down tomorrow or we are over. Not really. But we are the only ones in the neighborhood with a brand new front door that people slow down to look at then, BAMMM, the Christmas lights. I like to call it white T. I guess it's okay if I admit it. I mean at this point we might as well leave them up and say they are for Luke when he finally gets here.

Jake continues to crack me up. My words came back to haunt me this morning!

As we were leaving I said to myself, "Where is my cell phone?"

Jake-"I don't know, it's not mine.You gotta look for it yourself."

Hope y'all have a great weekend!!



TAKS and Baby Showers

I have not blogged in a week. I am ashamed. I have had one thing on my mind. TAKS. It's so sad that my little ole salary depends on that test. If I can get through next Tuesday I will be golden. I need prayers, BIG ones. Not just for me but for these sweet kiddos that are just as stressed as I am. At this point I will be praying over them, their chairs, desks, pencils, booklets, and answer sheets. And I know they will do wonderful!

We had a very busy weekend. I am thankful for busy these days. I am ready for Luke to grace us with his presence. Friday night Jake went to his dads. I always hate those days. Anyway- Cody and I had a weekend to ourselves which has not happened in months and will not be happening for another 18 years. We went to Galveston on Saturday and stayed at one of my favorite hotels, San Luis. Some of my very favorite people were there including my best friend. We had a great time. I made it to a whopping 9:30 before I went upstairs for bed. And that was pushing it. Cody stayed downstairs and hung out until his 11 o'clock curfew. He tried to push it but was only a few minutes late. Oh, his nine months are coming. I have already warned him. I may throw in a few extra months for all I have been through this go round!

Sunday we came home in time for my shower. It was perfect. When I found out I was prego all of my girl friends said how they just couldn't wait to throw me a shower. I did not want a shower nor did I want to register. This is my second child and he is a boy, just like Jake. I just hate to think every time some of these people see me they feel like they need to buy me a gift. Needless to say, I am having two showers and I had one at school. The two that have already happened have been perfect. Just the perfect size. I am looking forward to my shower next weekend at Tommy Bahamas with all of my girlfriends. We don't get to see each other near enough so this will be a treat for sure.

Cody is working days for the next month, hallelujah! Things were tough last week. Jake had me constantly up and down in the evenings. He wore me out so much I called Dora on Saturday and set her up to start cleaning again every week. Now if only I could find someone to do the laundry exactly the way I do,  I would be set. I would actually pay her double what I pay Dora. I haven't seen the floor in my laundry room in 9 months.

I started walking again. I have not been getting any sleep. I resorted to the couch last night. And back to the bed at 3:30. That's 3 times I was up not counting the other 3 I was up using the bathroom. I can smell my 6 weeks off, its soooo close.

This actually has nothing to do with my shower but this is Stetson. He's my 8 year old Chihuahua that thinks he's being so mistreated cause hes outside. He cracks me up!

Big Weekend.....Literally


So my new front and back door are finally in. They look wonderful. I never knew it would be an all day job. Thank God for beautiful weather, my brother in law, my father in law, and Cody on Saturday.We have been looking for a door for months and we finally found one we both loved so much!  In the past month we have done so much to the house and we are alomost done. We have moved to the outside! We will replace some white posts with cedar and re paint the trim. We had thought we were going to wait two years to build but it is looking more like just a year. I can't wait. I will not know what to do with a house big enough for all of us! But I am waiting oh so patiently so we can build just what we want.

I have promised prego pics, this kills two birds with one stone. Me (BIG) and the new door

I am defintely nesting at this point. Saturday I cleaned out bathroom cabinets, our closet, kitchen cabinets, and dusted my hutch. I was pretty much dying on Sunday. I had cramps/pains all day in to the night. I questioned a trip to the hospital more than once. I have promised myself NO MORE and to chill. After this week of course since Cody is on evenings. Jake and I will eat frozen dinners and I will not get off of the couch for much.
Cody and I said we were not getting anything for each other on Valentine's Day because we have been putting so much money in to the house. Well, Cody lied. He got me the most precious James Avery bracelet with a J and L on it!

I almost love this gift as much as my wedding ring. It's absolutely perfect!! I know I tell yall constantly how awesome my husband is but he really out did himself this time. This is going to be hard to top. 

Jake is 4

 I can't believe Jake is already 4. I cried on his birthday numerous times including before I even got out of bed that morning. We have been through so much in his little four years of life and I have always promised him I would never settle for anything less than the best for his life. We struggled for a few years by ourselves and there is no doubt in my mind it is the reason we share such a special bond. The day we met Cody everything fell right in to place and now we are a family. What I have always promised him. Cody and Jake are such an awesome pair. He loves Cody so much. Cody is so loving to him. I have always heard how hard being a step parent is but Cody stepped right in and I can't imagine what our life would be like without Cody. There are so many times I just look at Jake and tears come to my eyes because it's so hard for me to grasp that he is mine, that God created such an awesome little boy through me, and that I am the one who gets to enjoy and love him. We had a small party that was the one and only Toy Story 3 theme. These are some things Jake is doing at 4 and I hope I don't leave anything out.

Jake-

   You are a hand full, a mess. A smart and cute mess. You are a typical boy who loves to get dirty, jump off the couches, pushes your limits, and cause mom heart attacks on a daily basis. You absolutely love the guitar. You watch CMT or GAC and just play your guitar to the songs. You are already telling us you will be on the stage one day and all those people will be there to watch you. You ask on an average of 400 questions a day and we try to answer all of them. I know you are just curious about so many things and it will only make you smarter.  You associate everything with color. It amazes us. You can tell us what color a persons shirt was days later or tell us what color a school was because of the blue overhang over the front that I would have never even noticed.  You are so crazy about your grammy and paw paw white hair. You think your Uncle Stephen has hung the moon and whatever he says is the funniest stuff ever and he's always right. You love sports and can play anything. You can make a basket on a 9' goal, you can throw a perfect spiral football, you can hit a baseball out of the park(left & right handed) You can't pronounce your L just yet so it makes the sound of W when you talk. You wuv us and you wuv your weapster. Cody tries to teach you the correct L sound but I kinda like it so I tell him you will learn how to say it soon enough. You are very healthy and you don't realize how strong you are. The muscles in your shoulders and quads make me think you will be one heck of a football player one day. You are so sweet and are very affectionate. I know this will end one day soon so I eat it up now! You love to snuggle with us and tell us you love us just driving down the road. You have a blanky you never leave home without. It has had its better days. When you were a teething baby you used to chew on this blanky and it has developed in to a habit. You have chewed holes in this blanky on every corner. I am hoping you are able to leave the blanky the first day of Kindergarten. Your favorite saying right now when I tell you to do something is, " are you just kidding? You want do to everything not all by yourself but "all myself." "Mom, I can do it all myself!!" You are a very funny little boy and we thank God everyday for you. You bring so much happiness and joy to our lives. I know you are going to be such a BIG DEAL when you grow up. We love you sooo  soooo soooo much! Happy Birthday Jake Conner!

Is It Okay to Chest Bump?


When I made my coffee this morning I couldn't find any creamer in the teacher's lounge so I put Jake's leftover chocolate milk in it. Don't judge me, it's been that kind of week. And it was hella good might I add.
My students are driving me nuts, we have writing TAKS test in less than a month and I still have those that talk in ebonic/slang. I could really care less how they talk once they leave my room but the problem is they write exactly like they talk. It's sad y'all.I am not giving up on these little chitlins. I have started a writing boot camp in room 101 and they hate me. I hate being a drill sergeant but I refuse to let them fail. I think it makes my blood pressure rise when I have to be on top of them all day and watch their every move. Maybe it will allow me to going to labor. That wouldn't be bad. After I drank my coffee the Kinder teacher came in my room and told me there were do-nuts in the lounge if I wanted one. I said sure bring me one. As she was leaving my room I yelled make it 2. WITH SPRINKLES. I chose Subway for lunch since I had been so bad this morning.
My training got cancelled Wednesday in the Woodlands so I had to do my own spray tan with Cody's help. I feel much better. I ended up ordering a number of shirts online since my trip to town never happened. I got three in today and they are super cute. And big. But whatev. I'm just thankful my favorite face powder is matching the color of my skin again after the tan. It's the little things.
Jake started feeling bad Wednesday night. We had late start on Thursday. I took his temp and it was a little over 100. He came to school with me and laid on a bean bag all day in my room. Mom came down this morning and took care of him while I was at school. Cody has been working nights this week so when he got up at 1 he text me and said Jake was running a 103 fever. I called the clinic here in town for them to look at him. Of course he always gets sick on a Friday, and as much as I hate to take him to the doctor I am usually scared to let it go in to the weekend. This is where I will brag on my husband....My mom left when Cody got up at 1. Cody worked all night, came home and slept for five hours, and got up and took Jake to the doctor. None the less the doctor said it was a viral infection and it would have to run its course. Cody did leave with two bottles of medicine that I can use next time this happens. I always love that. Especially if it has a refill on the label. Makes me feel like I got my moneys worth. I asked Cody what he had to pay and he said the girl said she didn't know so she was going to bill him? I am not sure where else in America that can happen but Centerville, Texas. Cody sends me this picture at school right before the doctor. I love this kid!

We have had a very relaxing Friday night. It was frozen pizza for dinner. We had homemade ranch so that makes up for something. Homemade ranch makes Totinos taste good.

We will install a new front and back door tomorrow. I will make sure I will post a pic. The front door is beautiful and I have been waiting forever to get it in. This weather has not helped. Apparently you can't stain wood in low freezing temps. Hope y'all have a wonderful weekend!!

I almost forgot- As I was tucking Jake in tonight he asked me if he could give me a chest bump instead of a kiss?!!! After I got myself together I informed him you don't chest bump your mother. Y'all pray for me.

Trip to Town

I made a rather large scentsy order this morning. Made my day start out pretty fantastic. Anytime I make a order for someone else I always end up ordering just as much for our house. So, then I am just as excited as they are. Anyway- I still want to post about Jake's birthday and his little party but I need my camera for the pictures and I just can't write without the pics.
I do know Jake got a DS and a Leapster and its been rather quiet around my house. I am going to have to make rules about these two little devices because he looks rather addicted already. They are going to be for in the car only. I don't ever want him to be that kid who is addicted to video games. I refuse to buy another DVD player until I get a new car and they are mounted in headrests. The 4 that I have bought are always broken a month later.  HA. Who am I kidding?? In the headrest? I just hear that in all the rap songs. I am sure it will be the drop down one from the roof. Y'all know I would never spend that much money on a car. I just put a TV in his room with a DVD player, but no cable, a month ago and I debated for a long time about that. Growing up my parents never let us have a TV in our room until we were much older because they wanted us in the living room as a family. Of course, I hated it back then and thought I was the only under privileged child in America without a TV in my room. Now that I look back I love the idea and understand completely why they did it. Off my soap box now....Did I mention how nice it was last night when Cody and I went and did our taxes and Jake SAT QUIETLY the whole time and played his Leapster? And they guy even said Jake you sure are a well behaved little boy when we left. It was music to my ears that I had never heard before.
I have training tomorrow in the Woodlands for TAKS. Cody is working at night tomorrow so I will spend the night at moms. I am thinking I may get a airbrush tan, my car detailed, and do a little shopping while I am in the big city. None of which will ever happen in Centerville, Texas. I should feel like a new woman by Thursday. It's amazing how much better tan fat looks than white fat. How sad is it I look forward to paying $85.00 to get a car detailed? I am getting way tooooo old. Maybe my next post I will be feeling young again after the trip to town.

For Real Friday Snow Day


I have said it a million times today and I will say it again.....I WISH JAKE WAS HOME!! It has snowed about an inch or so here and he is stuck in Willis at his dads where there is NO snow. I know he wishes he was home too. Makes me so sad. Tomorrow is his 4th birthday so we are cleaning up and preparing for 25 people to take over our 1400 square foot home. Cody and I managed to get out and take some pics of the snow before we started the cleaning process....

We have 2.5 acres right outside of town that we will soon build a house on. We rode out there and took a few pics too. It's so pretty and I can't wait until we are able to start building!! It's so peaceful and quiet.

                That is Cole, he lives right up the road and came down to throw a few snowballs at Cody!

I am not sure why I am cheesing so much. Probably because we just learned how to use the self timer on my camera and I am so excited!! Goodness my cheeks are BIG.
I have a big pot of gumbo on the stove. Yuuummmm!
My next post will be of Jake's bday party and all of the fun stuff he got. Stay warm!!



Snow Day Wednesday


 Yesterday my school announced we would have late arrival today but it decided to snow in C'Ville and the roads were nasty here so we never made it to school. Cody called me worried sick this morning after seeing a 18 wheeler turned over in the ditch on his way to work and begged me not to drive. If I wasn't 7.5 months prego and had a almost 4 year old little boy with me I probably would have went in anyway but decided it wasn't worth chancing it. Not even close.  I wish I could say Jake let me sleep in but that wasn't the case. He was up at 6:45 begging for chocolate milk and Little Einsteins. It is now 2pm and I am still in my pj's and Jake is napping. I have been in the nursery all morning going through boxes, washing cute little outfits, and putting more stuff away. I am avoiding the nursery closet with everything I have. It's been that closet where everything gets thrown that you have no clue what to do with. And it's bad. I will get to it sometime in the next 6 weeks. Hopefully sooner than later.
Jake turns 4 on Saturday and I can't believe it. We are having a small party here at the house. About a month ago we were pulling up at home and Jake says mom can we have my party right here? Absolutely! I love staying home right now so it sounded like a fabulous idea to me. I got all of his stuff in from birthday express and we are ready to have a great Toy Story 3 party. I wish he didn't grow so fast. It's really starting to get me down.
I have been walking and it's crazy how much better I feel. I don't know why I am so surprised. I have been active all of my life so I should have known. All of my swelling has pretty much went away and I am sleeping much better. It's a great stress relief too. I pick my Pandora station, put in my ear buds, and go to town around the neighborhood. It's been wonderful. I know it will make my labor much easier. Only 7 weeks to go if they don't take this little guy in 5 weeks.
I am very thankful for all of my wonderful friends and family these last two weeks. I am so thankful for Cody. I am the luckiest girl in the world. He has supported me through tough times and loves my Jake just like he's his own. And of course my mother, y'all know how I feel about her!
Stay warm and inside if you can! Have a great week!

Jake has enjoyed our snow day as well. I have gotten my 9 bucks out of this costume for sure!!